Yes I pray, But sometimes I feel I'm getting the busy signal.

So I'm going to take a break from preaching about writing problems, and just write.

Not good at this.
Nope.
Still not good.

     As I sit in my fancy white chair devoured by cat scratches, I reflect on how twisted life is. And how I'm not using this blog as an outlet to vent. Now it's not so easy when you have a life like mine and you raised not to complain. My life although has those beautiful irreplaceable moments, is something very personal and not pretty at all, but I want to start talking about it, in case you're life sucks too then we can laugh/cry about it together.

Do you? Well come on in!
*Wraps arms around you*
Better?

  




        So this week our car decided that it was going to die, we don't know what happened all we know is that it's going to cost possibly eleven-hundred dollars.

Cars are evil.

     All we know is that it could be the starter or this other part a fly- something. If it's the starter it's over five-hundred dollars, if it's both pieces it's going to cost the eleven-hundred. Now in these situations, I'm the positive one, and I still am but it's just another fly that landed on our mound of crap.

Yes I pray.

But sometimes I feel I'm getting the busy signal.

    I'm also that person who believes everything happens for a reason, and that God is teaching me a lesson, but boy he doesn't wear kit gloves.

     Money is always tight, we're always pinching pennies, our pennies pinch pennies. I think I've had chicken beast and potatoes every night this week, am I grateful I have food, absolutely. I can't help but think of the families out there not eating I've been there I know how it feels. I used to live in Pa and I had seen maybe one homeless person, I moved down here and have encountered so many people who have fallen onto hard times. I've started asking their names, so I can include them in my prayers.
      I never pray "Oh God please don't let me become like them!" I feel like that's not only ignorant but it's insulting to that person. I do pray that when God brings me up that he includes them too. I've been homeless, and there comes a time when you're so darn focused on making it that you can't not stay positive, He got you there and he will make sure he gets you out.

I'm not very preachy person, and find that my relationship with God is MINE. But I also feel there is someone who may read this and it may be that push to just not stop, don't stop fighting, I got your back, I'll help you when you fall.

I just gave you a VIP insight into my life. That was hard, but I have a lot to say. and a lot of gifs to share. I love you. I hope you're doing okay and if not I'm here. It will get better.